Monday, December 26, 2011

Today I got out of my car.

Today we walked past a cold man sitting with his duffel on a park bench near the coffee shop we were visiting.  I saw him wiping tears from his eyes with a rather old looking napkin (I'm sure the age of the napkin is irrelevant, but it made an impression on this excessive hand washer anyway).  I got what I needed and then sat in my car thinking about him and wondering what he was doing there; alone, cold, the day after Christmas, crying.  I must have sat in my car for 10 minutes trying to decide if I should do something for him, and what.  I've had these 'ideas' in the past, and easily ignored them, never sure if I would be safe to offer help or hissed at for my attempt at kindness.  I will admit, I have a general distain for 'pan handling' and other manner of begging.  However, this man expected nothing of me, even embarrassed to be seen crying by me.  Today I got out of my car.  I went back in the coffee shop and then walked over to offer him a large coffee and muffin.  His gratitude humbled me to tears.  It shook me, and for a while.  I don't cry often, but when I do I'm hard to stop.  An endearing quality?  No, definitely not.  Anyway, I am certain I have never made another person so happy with 5 minutes and 5 dollars.  I am changed and will hesitate no more.

6 comments:

Heidi Bruch said...

I love you. I did seething similar recently. Amazing how small things make big differences. Xo

Heidi Bruch said...

Something. Not seething.

Joia Poort said...

What a wonderful person you are. Thank you for doing that, and thank you for sharing. xo

Emelie - C'est LA vie said...

I like that you gave him hot coffee as opposed to the usual spare change; so much more dignified. Xx

Emelie - C'est LA vie said...

One more. Once on my way home from Starbucks in London, I carried an egg sandwich in a bag. Walking past a guy sitting in the street with a sign saying "hungry and homeless" I obviously felt compelled to give him my sandwich. I offered it and he took a quick peek in the bag then said: "Uhm, I don't really care for eggs Miss... Got any tuna?"
:)

Ali said...

Love you.